stupid random shoutouts

it's midnight and yet i can't sleep,, my feeling is so fucking messed up and i don't know what to do,, *sigh*

tomorrow is my computer practical exam and now i'm typing,, trying to somehow ease my feelings,,

i'm so excited to go to bali this friday,, but i still don't know if i will be permitted to go there due to my exam remedial,, oh GOD please let me go to bali!

i understand that i'm such a fool,, YES! I'M A FOOL! i know that fling is only a temporary thing but why does it bother me so much? why it is hard to let go? heyy,, babo yaa! u know what,, i'm here missing u so badly and yet i'm nothing to you! ='(

i'm wearing a hair clip now and using a pimple cream thingy just to make my face cleaner! please go away pimples! gimme back my clean face!!

i wonder when will i have a good shaped body? i dream of it thousands time and still my body is full of fat ='( i have thought of getting a liposuction,, but if i do it,, then i will be cheating,, right?

in my bag,, there is a certificate for ETF and LNI scholarship,, i'm so happy about it,, but can you guys give me a clear confirmation about the scholarship? i've got my I-20 from DVC and yet my future university life plan is still blurry,, *sigh*

i have a wild dream of eating boxes of chocolate,, scoops of ice cream and layers of cake without getting the calories! me wannaaaa!!!

should i sleep now?

roller coaster ride

roller coaster is the most favorite thing in a amusement park,, i simply agree,, but imagine your love life is a roller coaster ride! love life with ups and downs? errrrr,, i simply hate it! LOL,,

my love life? it's a roller coaster ride and it's going to end soon,, but even though i hate it,, i don't want to get off,,

aaaaaaa,, babo yaa~

06.04.10

damn it's april already! this first quarter of this year does fly so fast,, it feels like you slept and the next thing that u realize is that high school is almost over! even though everyday i was lazy to wake up shower and go to school,, now in this very moment i wish that high school won't end,,

it's like we're thinking of year book and so excited to see the printing result,, but it will be like the last memories of high school,,
it's like you are very very outrageous to plan the prom,, what to wear,, where it will be held,, how is going to be,, but you'll be afraid to say goodbye,,
it's like you are so anxious to put on your toga and walk through the aisle of the gym,, but you'll understand that that's the end of your high school life,,

for me,, saying goodbye is never easy,, the truth is,, i hate saying goodbyes,,

okay,, stop this melancholic thing! damn!! i just wish that i can have the best memories during this high school life =)

cheers!